After a few days of thinking, I realized my mistakes. It was very difficult to sit down and really look into why I didn't succeed. First the matches. Ken got greedy. The other big thing was, me not starting the 1st set of grand finals after talking about being the one to start for so long. I realized how much of an assassin Kobe Bryant is watching him play in the playoffs. All he wants to do is stick to you and end your life, and I didn't do it. After getting that out of the way, it was a lot easier to think about what happened.
First off, the biggest mistake I made was treating this hobby of mine as something more than just a hobby. I let it consume me, and consume my life. Kind of like how you dated a girl and you revolved your life around her and then she broke you heart. I love the game, but I have to live my life first before it, just as if I dated a girl, I can't always do everything she wants. Of course, if we had won, none of this would be necessary but because things don't always work out you always have to be more careful. My teammates want to try to go to Japan and play in the last chance, and I asked myself, why the hell not? I mean, nothing really ever comes easy in my life, I've always had to overcome obstacles and why not make this another one. We'll just have to go to Arizona, win that tourney, have Ken maybe win SF4 and grab $2000 for that. Do well at EVO, and then we should have enough to go, besides tickets are cheap this year, half of what we paid for last year, so it's pretty much like winning half the tickets from last year.
Anyways, I'm not sure about what I will do, but I will go with my life and see if an oppurtunity presents itself for me to go to Japan. Can't go out like that.
I've applied to about 20 jobs so far, no responses hahaha. Hoping those government jobs come through and I can start my career. But I'm also working hard on revising my resume and doing a better job of trying to sell myself to the suitors.
Til next time.
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